9/28/2009

I got home last night at 8pm. With one kid who coughs in your face is hungry and tired and dirty from wiping her face all day long. Touching me and her brother with her sticky hands. Then my little crabby baby, who just got 3 shots in his legs and is tired and hungry also. Yet after picking up the medication they need to stop being sick and crabby. I realize its 8pm, the bowl of cereal I grabbed at my parents isn’t holding me over, I have no clean bottles and there is still a huge pile of dust bunnies on my living room carpet. I ignore the bunnies since they have been there since Saturday when I certain some one thought it was dumb to vacuum since he convinced himself and me he would vacuum after installing our new window. I change into pajamas since I of course have spit up on my work shirt, and make a bowl of cereal: this of course temps Alexis. Now she wants one, fine no big deal until it ends up on my floor with her standing in it: And the best part: her shirt didn’t get wet. Not like I really care at that point since her pants and socks are covered in milk and frosted flakes. Jake strolls into the kitchen and of course yells at Alexis: I’m just grateful it’s not on my carpet with the bunnies. The dogs licking it, Jake is yelling and Lexi’s telling everyone her shirt isn’t wet. I leave and go into the living room and eat alone. I finish my cereal and go back to the kitchen to clean the mess that I know Jake didn’t, and Lexi is happily eating her new bowl of cereal. As I start to do the dishes since Reid is screaming, like he was getting the shots all over again, I have now realized Jake has decided to go to bed, since I have been yelling at him since I walked in the door to HELP!!!!!! If he actually was sleeping I would have been tempted to smother him with a pill instead I yell some more for him to get up and help. Now he can’t get Reid since he made it clear: Reid is NOT his responsibility. So now at that point I just want to pack up and leave, yet I can’t since that would require more work than I already have to do. So I get Lexi ready for bed, put her bed, ignore her demands of things she needs to sleep and try to calm Reid down, which is so dumb on my part since I do not have food in my hands, he could care less that I’m trying to calm him down so his face goes back to a normal color instead of a reddish/purple. So I leave him in the swing and start making bottles. Jake at this point must have gotten tired of the screaming since he finally picked up Reid, which in reality means; he has been screaming non-stop for at least a half an hour. I make bottles for him and put his pajamas on: I try to give him Tylenol thinking that might help, well of course the lid is stuck and then Jake decides to get involved and opens it. I end up dripping it on his pajamas and have to change him. Feed him a bottle which takes at least 45 mins since I don’t think he is actually hungry he just wants the bottle to drip formula into his mouth while he sleeps. Finally at 9:50 pm, he is done for the night. I still have dished to do, a kitchen to mop and bunnies that I know are looking at me while I feed Reid. So I do finish the dishes, mop the floor so there is no milk left on the ground, do a load of laundry, and make it in to bed at 1030. Only to wake at 500 am w/a hungry baby, a kid who is in my bed coughing, Jake snoring and an 80lb dog at the foot of my bed. . Reid then proceeds to fall back asleep while I heat up his bottle. So I wake him up, since he woke me up in the first place, feed him, get ready for work, make more bottles, get Lexi up and leave for another day at work. Make it through half the day, call and check on my kids only to hear what I already now: Reid is crabby and screaming (again) and Lexi is still coughing. But the topper? My mom asks where the diapers are since she has been telling me for a week she needs them. I forgot was the reply, and she asked me how I forgot them. I really don’t know, but something has to change

Reid

So, once again I’m delayed on writing here. Reid Anthony was born July 19, 2009 at 7:45am, at 8lbs 8oz. I can’t believe now he is 2 months old and a thumb sucker. Other than trying to adjust to work a baby and my 4 year old, I’m just plain tired. And I don’t see it getting any better, yet on the 29th of September, maybe I'll get a break.

Forever ago

It has been forever since I posted and so much has changed. Im pregnant due July 23 w/a little boy who still doesnt have a name. My baby is a 4 year old w/an attitude. I changed jobs, which Im thankful that I still have one :) and I moved....AGAIN! I have a feeling that I wil be moving again, which comes to me as no big shock any more. Im just not happy with my living situation and only I can change it and make it better for myself and my kids... I'll be posting more soon.

The Devil

I have decided the devil makes this little candy eggs called: "cadbury mini eggs" the reason the devil has to make is the fact that they are so damn good. They only come out at Easter time and have a habit of always being bought and ate by me. Now the white are my favorite no reason since all those eggs taste the same. Its not like I need to eat these damn candies. In fact I should STOP buying them. But I cant and I wont: I'm addicted

Its been a long time

It has been forever since I blogged. Not like anyone cares or reads it but I think for my own mental health I should. Im at a stand still in my life. Im not happy were Im at in my life. but have realized. I cant completely change it right now. I hate were I live and have decided I want MY OWN HOUSE!!! to live in. Just me and Lexi. Thats what I need in my life. I have never lived alone and I think I should. I thinkeveryone should be out on their own at one point in there life. According to some I would be able to handle it. But the damn truth is I dont make enough money. I never made alot of money and of course being in debt doesnt help. But its okay. something has to change soon. Right?

37 Days

37 Days till Christmas and the Holiday season is out of control. I think the day after Halloween is a little extreme to start decorating your house. Just my personal opinion. I did actually start my Christmas shopping and now Im done w/Alexis who once again got way more money spent on her than she should. But thats okay, she is spoiled and I know it. I have noticed that no one has seem to notice that Thanksgiving is only 11 days away. I think some how they have forgotten that. Forgotten to give thanks for the things in life they do have, not to look under the tree and see the things you dont need. I think people are truelly forgetting about what Christmas really means. And the meaning might be different for everyone but it shouldnt be about gifts. So I hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving and is giving thanks for the things in life they have.

10 years

Its been 10 years since I have graduated High School. Some days I feel that old and other days I still feel 18. Yet now that it had been that long I have come to realize that people don't change from high School. They still gossip and discuss you behind your back and make it seem they have never been in your shoes. Well, maybe you should step out of your shoes and try on a pair of mine. Don't tell me you have never felt the way I have. Don't tell me you have never wanted something out of your grasp. Don't tell me you wont do things to make your self happy. Besides learning this again after 10 years. I have learned something even better. Make your self happy you only have one life to live and why spend it miserable.