December

Its Christmas time again and Im not really in the Holiday spirit. Which is no surprise. Yesterday morning before I left for church I was sitting on the floor waiting for Lexi's Monster movie to rewind. She came up behind me and Said: dont worry, its okay. And for the first time I believed everything was going to be okay. I have been praying that things change for the better and I feel them coming. Althou, nothing will ever be perfect. I have to find a way to see beyond the imperfections and accept the good things in my life. Lexi is getting so big and you never know what will come out of her mouth. Its just one thing after another and I love it. Maybe I am starting to get into the Holiday spirit. I need some good cheer.

Time Flies

Did you ever sit back and think the world is passing you by..while you are waiting for something to happen. I woke up today and realized the summer was over and I was bummed. I wanted to play outside w/Lexi some more, I wanted to swim in the pool some more, I wanted to do many things and I feel I have done nothing. Its just upsets me since I felt so busy and rushed all summer long, and really in the end nothing was accomplished. We are moving now and thats just more stress on me. More things to rush, less time w/Lexi. It always seems to be something. One thing or another that keeps making me feel like Im stuck w/no where to go. I just hope after moving everything starts to work out for me and Lexi. So we can play outside some more, go for walk do all the things I wanted to do w/her this summer. I'm tired of rushing I just want to enjoy my life but it keeps flying by. Some one made a comment about how I cant wait for Lexi to grow up and thats not true I would love to keep my little baby. I would love to do it all over again. And not make the mistakes I did. Spend more time holding her instead of cleaning and just spend more time w/her and forget the rest.....

A HOUSE

Well, we finally got a house. Jake and I bought it together, our closing date isn't untill Sept 28, but that gives us plenty of time to pack. Its 3 bedrooms upstairs so Lexi-girl gets a playroom to stuff all her toys in. And in the basement there is another bedroom that is going to be my office. Im so excited finally a place all to myself to scrapbook and work on all my other projects. Lexi is excited she wants to go to the new-new house already. The one night she told me to go get her shoes and I said "why" and she said "go new-new house" I think she will be happy there w/a big back yard to run around in. Its about time she will have a nice backyard. And a garage w/an electric opener so we can get her toys out anytime we want. There is sidewalks to, so we can start going for walks after dinner. There is even a school w/a huge playground for her to play on. I cant wait.