37 Days

37 Days till Christmas and the Holiday season is out of control. I think the day after Halloween is a little extreme to start decorating your house. Just my personal opinion. I did actually start my Christmas shopping and now Im done w/Alexis who once again got way more money spent on her than she should. But thats okay, she is spoiled and I know it. I have noticed that no one has seem to notice that Thanksgiving is only 11 days away. I think some how they have forgotten that. Forgotten to give thanks for the things in life they do have, not to look under the tree and see the things you dont need. I think people are truelly forgetting about what Christmas really means. And the meaning might be different for everyone but it shouldnt be about gifts. So I hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving and is giving thanks for the things in life they have.

10 years

Its been 10 years since I have graduated High School. Some days I feel that old and other days I still feel 18. Yet now that it had been that long I have come to realize that people don't change from high School. They still gossip and discuss you behind your back and make it seem they have never been in your shoes. Well, maybe you should step out of your shoes and try on a pair of mine. Don't tell me you have never felt the way I have. Don't tell me you have never wanted something out of your grasp. Don't tell me you wont do things to make your self happy. Besides learning this again after 10 years. I have learned something even better. Make your self happy you only have one life to live and why spend it miserable.

$1.81

$1.81 x 5 days a week = $9.05 a week x 52 weeks a year = $470.60

That is how much money I spend a year on buying myself a large coke at McDonald's every day before I go to work. Do you know what I could seriously do w/that money. Besides putting it in savings. I could get a pedicure every month and still not spend as much. I could buy a new pair of jeans every month. The amount of stuff I could buy. But to be honest I know where my extra money would go.....right to Alexis' toy pile :) So starting tomorrow 10/17/08 No more large cokes in the morning....plus I'm sure my weight would love once less pop a day.

Lexi-ism

My daughter can come up w/the most amusing things to say. Last night @ dinner my mom and I were discussing Lexi's First Field trip to the pumpkin patch. She thinks she should go w/Lexi. And then my daughter told me: "Im 3 years old, I can go by myself." She wont even go to the bathroom alone yet she will go to a pumpkin patch.

Then I make my daily phone call to my parents to find out what Lexi is up too. Then we have to have a whole conversation. Today it was a short one, it lasted about 7 mins. She asked is we were going some place special today, which we are not, but she wants to go to the mall. Then she informed me I need to borrow money from my work and take her to the mall so she can play. She is so smart she said we need free money and alot of it. Must be nice to have free money:) and alot of it.

Plus she told me we need Santa to come over to our house so she can show him this ice cream thing she wants. She saw it on TV, I told her to go watch a movie.

First Day of School

Lexi's first day of school was September 2, 2008. She did so great. She wanted to play with the caslte they have there. She loves it. She really didnt seem to care that I left and when I went to pick her up she said she had fun and wanted to go back.

Potty training

When I left to go to work on Monday Jul 28. I had a daughter who would get hysterical when I would ask her to sit on the toilet. the one day I put a diaper on cuz I thought she was going to have a anxiety attack. I received the call at about 930 am, asking my to come get her. She was w/her father and she didn't seem to like him anymore. I found out why. He ran out of diapers. I choose not to leave work early and bring her diapers. I figured he could deal w/it. Its was about time he took her anyway. Then the phone call come in around 10am. w/ a little voice saying; "i went pee" I sat at my desk in tears. I was so happy. My little girl went on the toilet. Not just once either. So when I went to pick her up after work I had a little girl w/no diapers and a big smile. I'm truly happy that she has learned the toilet isn't bad and she can actually sit on it. It isn't a perfect system yet, but that's okay. Im just actually thankful for her father for once.

FAT A$$

Its official. I am fat. Yep, I tried to deny if for so long and it wont go away. I have been ignoring this problem for over 3 years. And I guess its time to stand up too it. I'm not even sure how to go about it. I know I drink too much pop, eat too much food. Yet, I have no control over any of this. Its like I go crazy and need more. In reality I don't need more food, I need less food and way less pop.
Its terrible I found out I gain 10 lbs since Christmas and now barely any of my clothes fit. I hope they dont catch on at work that I wear the same clothes, week after week. Its so damn depressing. I sit here on my bum all day at work w/no exercise and then I have to go home do everything and still find time to exercise...WHERE???? I really just want to sit here and cry, but I think people would notice.